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Perhaps, I Expect Too Much

It feels all happened so fastWe get acquainted and then suddenly felt a strange feeling. Every day is different and no longer feels the same. You attend brought many changes in my days. Black and white becomes more colorful when your figure fill the empty spaces in my heart. None ordinary conversation, as if it all feels so magical and extraordinary. I do not know, this feeling grows beyond the limit that I know.

I became afraid of losing you. Torment come repeatedly when there is no news from you. You are like taking control of my mind and my heart. There is an understandable cause. It's different and difficult without your news. Breath will be choked if your figure is lost. Am I wrong if you always put ahead?


But,,, why your attitude is not like my attitude. Your attention is not as deep my attention.Is there a fault between you and me? Don't You feel what I feel?

You may not understand my feeling, yet because you never busy thinking of me. Is sinned if I often drop my tear for you? I always lose you and you always go without asking for permission. Ask permission? Who am I? Your lover? Stupid! Stupid! Present in any dream, I should be grateful, even less be mine. Is it possible? Can be?
Your promise are too much until I forget to count whichever you keep, yet. So often you hurt but I forgive again and again. Look at me who can only keep silent and dumb. Look at me who sincerely love you but you fling so fleeced. How is unimportant of me? Am I just crossroads which you always ignore, also, you leave?

Am I unprecious in your eyes? Am I just a puppet who always follow your rules? Where is your heart? I can not say much, or express all that already occurred. I do not need to talk about love, if you keep deafen an ear. I could not say miss, if you create many times farther distance. I can not be anything other than look at you and bring your name in my long conversations with god.

Don't You realize that your fingers always hurt my heart? Don't you remember that  your words always pulverize my dreams? Am I do undeserving happiness with you? I'm sick of myself. I love you who indeterminated love me. I admire you who are indeterminate with my admiration feeling.

I was a nobody in your eyes and I could never be anyone. Actually I also want to know, where do you put my heart that had been given to you. But, you certainly did not answer and did not want to know about my curiosity. Who is someone who lucky cause of having you?

Perhaps,,, It is all my fault. Who considers everything changed according wishes. Who dreaming can make you more than relatives. Is it wrong if my feelings grow beyond the limits of reasonableness? I love you not only as relatives, but also as someone who is so valuable in my life.

However, it has been so far from my hope. Perhaps, I too expect much. I'm the one who did not realize my position and did not realize your position are quite far from the palm of the hand. I was stupid. I'm the one at fault.

Calm down! Do not be watching me again. I'm accustomed to hurt anyway, especially if caused by you. No need platitude, I can stay alone. And, you must be unconscious that I'm lying if I could easily forget you

Stay away. I want to go near the lonely alone. There my wounds heal. there I met people do not like you, who alternated mask with ease, who said unfortunately so easily.


That's about My Feeling for You
Who has been Married with Another One
Without Say Something to Me

Thank You!!!
It's really,,,really,,,really Unforgetable
And, maybe Unforgivable 

You've Made My Heart be Frozen
Traumatic about Fall in Love 

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